Carrying Last Years Depression Into the New Year

The date on the calendar changed.

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The idea of a New Year's Resolution is so that you can change past behaviors, set goals for things you've wanted/still want to do, and so on, but having depression, the idea of doing any of that is comical.

For quite some time now I have looked my depression straight in the eyes and said, "Oh, hi. You're back."

As each day went by, the biggest thing I noticed was the seasons changing or the weather fluctuates. My mindset was relatively the same throughout all of this. Depressed.

I have done and tried many things in 2019 that I couldn't have imagined myself doing, yet I did them. All while being unemployed probably eight out of twelve months. Now, that's not meant as a brag. I seriously don't know how I'm even alive (metaphorically) right now. More importantly, I didn't get a lot of things accomplished in 2019.

I can't even remember what "resolutions" I made this time last year. Most of the things I want to accomplish just roll over into my everyday life and are ult goals. They, however, continue to go unsuccessful every year.

So, as I sit not even one day into the new year I have to reevaluate my choices and figure out how the hell to get out of this depression. There are plenty of theories, and actions I can (and hopefully will) take to get to a better headspace, but for now, I am still depressed.

New Year, Same Me. But this time planning to share this process much more frequently and successfully than in the past. 🤞🏽

As always, thanks for being apart of this journey with me.

Chelsea